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I’ve been having a problem motivating myself to finish Fie Eoin. The re-write is done, of course, but I hand-write everything and typing it up is proving to be an issue. Not because I don’t have time (um, have you seen me on Twitter lately? And G+? I’ve even been spending an unusual amount of time on FB, which I hate!), but because I just can’t make myself do it. It’s kind of like when Hubs is gone for the night, and I’m exhausted, and I know I should go to bed, but I just can’t make myself take out my contacts and brush my teeth and turn off the light. I hate that it’s The End.
The End of the day, The End of the novel, it doesn’t matter. I love Fie Eoin. I love the feel of the world. I love the characters. As much as I can’t wait to start working on Apollo I don’t want to finish working on Fie Eoin. In the past I never had a problem writing The End because I knew the novel wasn’t finished. That draft was finished. Or that re-write was finished. But I didn’t have to leave the world yet because there was still so much left to do. And I know there’s still plenty left to do on Fie Eoin once it goes out there to agents and eventually publishers, but this is it for the “mine” part. After I write The End this time it becomes everyone’s.
Yes, that’s the point of publishing a novel. But it’s scary. And I know there are going to be sequels, but the only one who survives the entire series is Kaye. And she’s not exactly my favorite (yeah, now you know why GTKY Tuesday was all about Murder).
I just hate to leave Fie Eoin and my favorite characters for so long. I can’t imagine how hard it’s going to be to write the last book. To finally write The End and mean it.