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If you don’t know where the title comes from, Aledans, you are truly missing out on a hilarious movie experience. This week’s been crazy. Crazier than last week. Crazier than any week I’ve had for a looooong time.
Last week I was getting ready to join the #GUTGAA Pitch Contest, and I knew there was a small window in which to enter. I had no idea it would fill up within seconds. My heart was pounding (ha! I didn’t know what pounding was, as I’ll explain below) as I waited for that precious email that said “you’re in!”. When Deana announced that all winners had been notified my heart sank – I didn’t make it. Two hours later I received the “you’re in!” email and almost tipped over the lunch table in my excitement. The pure luck part of the contest was over and I was one of the lucky ones.
I spent the weekend forgetting about #GUTGAA with all the #PonyFest12 awesomeness (there’s an announcement at the bottom of the post – don’t miss it!).
On Monday morning I found my lovely pitch and waited impatiently for the votes to come in. They didn’t. On Tuesday morning I woke up to a vote (yay!), but heard the only judge with votes left was the one who I never expected to get a vote from, based on her other votes so far. So Tuesday night I went to bed a little disappointed, but mostly relieved that the crazy emotional roller coaster was over for me. No more stressing out about the contest, just plenty of stress-free time to type up edits.
I woke up on Weds morning to a vote from the one judge I didn’t think I’d get a vote from! Cue emotional roller coaster! Now there was a tie, and they had to bring in another judge to break it. My heart was pounding (ha! again) as I waited for the tie-breaker vote. And guess what?
I’m going to the finals! I got one of the tie-breaker votes!
Just typing this out has my heart pounding again (ha!).
So what’s with all the “ha!”s? I went to bed Weds night as happy as can be and also anxious as hell. And at 11:30pm I turned onto my side, and noticed that my heart was racing. And I mean racing. Nearly 200 beats per minute (normal is 60-80 beats per minute). Now that’s a pounding heart! No problem, I’d do some breathing exercises, wait it out, and it would slow down. Two hours later I finally got out of bed because it hadn’t slowed. I watched some TV. Ate something in case it was due to low blood sugar. An hour later I emailed my boss to tell him I wouldn’t be in on Thursday because I hadn’t slept all night. By four am I thought I was having a heart attack, except I wasn’t having any chest pains, difficulty breathing, or numbness. Just a heart that wouldn’t stop beating like I’d just swam away from sharks (which I’ve done before on Sullivan’s Island after one bumped my leg).
It was terrifying. Hubs was gone on a business trip, and I was home alone. I finally put my legs up for ten minutes and it slowed my heart down enough that I could sleep.
When I woke up I was having problems breathing. It felt like there was a rubber band around my chest, squeezing all the air out. My heartbeat was still elevated. I was shaking. I really thought I was having a heart attack. So I went to the doctor. My blood pressure was fine, but my heart was still beating around 100 times a minute. The good news is: no heart attack. The bad news is: they had to take blood (I’m really bad with needles!) and I won’t have any results until tomorrow or Monday (when I’ll be freaking out over agents reading my pitch!). The most likely culprits are Hyperthyroid (which I was tested for several years ago and didn’t have), Anemia (which I shouldn’t have based on my diet), or SVT brought on by stress (I’m guessing this one, since I’ve always had heart palpitations).
So the name of the game this weekend is NO STRESS. I’ll be finishing up my final edits (yeah, no stress…) and maybe taking a beach day to relax. You know what would really help? If you go play #PonyFest12 and delight me with your designs!
And speaking of #PonyFest12, we have a new prize to add to the pack! Beth Revis has donated a signed copy of her book A Million Suns! So you definitely want to get those pony designs entered in for this one 🙂
I hope you all have an excellent weekend, Aledans. Don’t stress out, and come play ponies with me!