Aledans, let’s pause a moment and take a deep breath. 2013 has come in like a lion (does that mean it will go out like a lamb?). It’s only the 17th day of the year, and I’ve already been through the wringer. I’m already doubting my writing, doubting myself, doubting that I can get everything that I’ve promised done in the next month. I haven’t even properly started querying yet, and I’m already close to giving up on Nameless. It’s so daunting, and I honestly don’t think it will be the book that lands me a publishing contract. I think I have a much better chance with Apollo or Book of Souls. But I’m still going to try with Nameless, because of something Amalia Dillin tweeted last night.
Yeah, I’ve been a complete idiot for the past week. But yesterday, with this tweet and a few kind words from another friend, a weight that I didn’t think I was carrying around slipped from my shoulders. I slept through the night for the first time in several days. My heart didn’t flop around in my chest like a dying fish when I laid down (this happens almost every night since my heart went nuts in September).
So lets start over, 2013. I promise to work harder if you promise to be gentle. I’ve already stopped drinking wine on most weeknights and started yoga back up again. I’ve already cut hundreds of superfluous words from Nameless. And tomorrow I’ll be over at Ask Daphne for the first About My Query of the year. I’ll get some professional feedback from an agent on my query, and perhaps feel a little bit better about starting the process I’ve been putting off for weeks now.
I’m glad I put it off for a few weeks, actually, because last week I found several agents who have suddenly jumped on the New Adult bandwagon. All of them rep Adult Fantasy, all of them rep YA, and now they rep New Adult as well. That’s pretty good news for me! It’s time to give them a chance to say yes.